The last day

I write this on the last day of the year...I know I wrote the last post just before this but wanted to make a different tone to this post!

2009 has been an odd year, it wasn't all bad, it certainly wasn't all good!

The result of giving up my job has certainly been the hardest to bear, but I still know that I made the right decision. I know that the financial repercussions will go on for a while yet, and there is still more to come. But the strain of the job was literally stealing my life, I was too tired, cranky, and paranoid to even enjoy time off and it's taken me some time to recover!

But I'm hopeful that God has much better in store for me, and whilst I may chafe against his timing I know that He has the best plan for me.

That's been the best part of 2009, that of coming 'home' to God. I know some of you reading this do not believe and that's your prerogative, and I wish you well, my hope is that you will allow room for my faith to be a part of who I am.

I have been a Christian for 19 years. But I have spent so much time turning my back on God it's more like 10 years! I know that I am at my happiest when I'm not running away, but sometimes I find it hard to trust that what God wants for me is best!

I've been challenged recently in my faith, when I realised that whilst I trust God to do the best in MY life, I'm not sure about my family! I'm working on that prayerfully!

I did receive a card from a lady in our church who put a note in to say that I have made a difference to the church, and was an answer to prayer! How lovely is that? I did have a little tear!

So onto 2010, and what is in store? I'm hoping that I will get a job soon so that I can sort out those financial troubles. My aim is to be debt free in five years!

I'm also looking forward to ways in which I will grow. This year I have seen myself grow Spiritually and emotionally, even though I tend to get tearful far more now, I think that may be a good thing!

It already appears that I will be taking a greater part in the church which is scary!

Also as our children grow up, our family is evolving, and this Christmas really brought that home to me, with Steph off to her friends on Christmas Day, I was out alone on Christmas Eve at the midnight service. We need to find ways to help it change for the better, and not fall into the trap of harking back to the past, for in living in the past discontentment lies.

So I'm thinking a new Tradition for 2010...hmm I will have to think!

So to all who are still here, and have not given up on this drivel, I wish you all a Happy New Year!